FOREVER!!!!

OKay well its obviously been to long since ivebeen on but ill be making regular posts for the next two weeks hopfully umm updates on everything going on in my life.... Well there are good things and very bad tings....bad first.....A good friend of mine's dad past away the 14th i will miss him very much he was a great guy of course everyone know that brittney murphy died of a hearrt attack.....okay well i cant think of anything else bad so the good things now......i look very diffrent now than i do in the pixx i am getting my hair cutt hopfully in the next month and will hopfully be going to panama city i have a myspace now..... www.myspace.com/thismusiclivesinme ...... and now i shall rant and yes i shall rant on twilight...... edwards gay.... jacob is a wanna be.....bella needs to just make up her mind and the story is stupid vampires dont sparkle they fucking burn...the story pissed me off end of story but i will be going now so bye bye hahahahaha

Nothing to say

Okay well I am bored and don't know what to talk about its like I ran out of ideas so give me some!!! Nothing is really going on in my life worth ranting or even talking about so i need ideas. I know you people are very creative so give me some ideas. I was told i was a good writer and i should post my work online but i won't cuz someone will steal it but just give me some ideas!!

update!

I don't usually do updates but i am back home so I have no internet at home. But i am in highschool now and I'm in NJROTC and having a good time loads of fun i want to know whats happening with all of you but i am also in chorus and its fun in therewe act stupid and i also have humanities adn i have nno drama im lovin it yeah wow i have a boring like school is the most exxiting thing 0.0 but i dont have alot to say so i will be going might rant later

until next time

peace alate broha

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rant #4 (onision)

okay well i was recently on onisions website if you dont know who im talking about go look him up on youtube or go to his website www.onision.com and there was a discution about a video he had done on "your Enemy: You" and they were talking about the villians flaw so please go watch the video before reading what i replied to the video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q6f89s0EJWU
here is what i said
"I watched this video and it made me think. what is peace? peace is a word and if people new the meaning and said they wanted peace no one would lie no one would kill no one would be raped or molested there would be no war every animal would have a chance. Today peoples morals are not in the right place murder is wrong anyway you look at it and if someone puts a gun to my face threating my life i would not know what to do i would not kill (but again i say this now never being in that exact situation) i would probably fight for my life but truelly i have no idea I am the strange kid but i enjoy it i am against war though alot of my family has been in the military and that gives me so much more reason to resint it a few months ago my uncle died teaching a new piolet how to drive in iraqy conditions and they had a mishap in the helicoptor something went wrong and they crashed into the comunntications center before the families were notified the press had already started filming the helicopter burning and it was on the internet before any calls were made but we were lucky they actually had a body to bring back to use there was othing left of the young piolet alot of my family is military my mom went in but fractured her hip her knee and her ankle (had to have 2 bolts put in her knee) my uncle was but he broke a bone or something i'm not sure my grandmother works for the hospital she is a nurse practioner my other uncle just recently went in to be a religious worker person and most of my family on both side have been in some form of the military but i will not. sorry to get off topic" so please leave messages and tell me what you think.

rant #3

okay well i went to aple bee's tonight. well i walked in and almost everyone turned around and stared it was hillarious people think i care if they stare or if they hate. well no i dont so haters hate and if you stare you should go see a therapist cuz you may have a staring problem. But i love the looks i get from old people and smallish children. They either look scared or spitful. Well i dont care cuz i just give them dirty looks and then they all look scared and for some reason i enjoy that. Yeah yeah yeah. You can say im crazy. Well i cant say imnot but im not saying i am. Which takes me to my next subject. Alot of people are saying oh if you call yourself scene your a pouser. Well im not. I do call myself scene if you must know. And I'm not a pouser so get over yourselves. And my next and final subject. I saw a link to a site that say something along the lines of what to do if your teen is emo. Well you can fix whats not broken. There is nothing wrong with us. GET OVER IT. The government thinks that we are weak and failures. But we just show feeling. My bad if we care. My bad if were not robots. You cant do anything about it. Its no phase its a pasion, its who we are, dont try to make us anything else we will just rebel even more and thats not what you want is it? well you cant change me obviously so get over it!!!


Until next time


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new photos

okay well i got a photobucket and i was messing with pixx

here they are





this is the beautiful demon pic







there is the another veiw on the world picc





here is the princess nate!! pic





here is the king of pop pic...

heres the wedding reception picc......(looks the stupidest but is funny <3)>







tell me what you guys think and tell me whos pic you want me to mess with next



p.s.--i did all the art in these pixx

RANT!!! #3

okay well i got a question and i thought i should put it in my next rant so here it is

"What is your say on Inter racial marriages..and where does America stand now??"
Tamish Mehra asked this question.
and i think it was great so ill answer it and rant a bit.
i think that interracial marriages are perfectly fine. its only a skin color you dont have to freak out if some is in love with some one of another color are even the same gender its there own choice not anyone elses. i think america is slowly accepting the new generation and what w have to offer but they dont like so much what we believe in like alot of us are what they call "emo" or emotive hard core heres a link to a website explaining more in detail http://www.luv-emo.com and the governament is affraid of what we have the power to do about the future and what they know will happen we are so much more open minded than them and thats the truth

well until next time



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RANT!!!#2

Woot!! rant number two.

Well i need ideas for my next rants im not sure how many there will be but there might be a few more. So tonights topic is.....wait for it........STUPID QUESTIONS AND THE PEOPLE THAT COME WITH THEM!!!!! yay!! okay but seriously i hate youll be sitting there watching a movie or something and some is like "what do they mean" i just want to punch people in the face sometimes we are all watching the same movie so we all know the same amount of information. I'm not saying all the people that ask those questions are nessicarily stupid but i mean use your common sense please!! but like i said they are not nessicarily stupid. So dont take any of this the wrong way and please dont hate me for my typos i know im a bad speller.

until next time remember dont ask stupid questions or ^ that will happen.

Peace alate broha

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RANT!!!!(# 1)

okay i dont ever write these out before i post them so there not always good its jsut whatever comes to mind. well today i shall rant. yes i know what your thinking "shes only 14 what does she know?" well im not doing any usual rant im going to rant about well anything that comes to mind and i fyou like message me at rawr378@yahoo.com or www.youtube.com/scenefiend and ill rant about what you think. well i cant stand when you get those people who are wearing sperrys and trying to rock a scotty vantiy shirt. When i see people like that i want to beat them in the face with there shoes. personally i think sperrys are ugly and so is northface. If you disagree well i dont care!. I am entitled to my opinion and so are all of you. So if your thinking of leaving me hate mail dont bother. I will most likly laugh at you. Or not even bother to read it. Which takes me to another subject. Why do people even both to leave hate comments? It makes no sense! nless you get those people who are easy to offend then its even stupider.
http://www.youtube.com/scenefiend#play/favorites/49/wXFCPUlGYEM
here is Ryan Higa and he just said everything that i would have. Haters are a joke!



Well until next time


Peace alate broha!


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prejudice!?

okay, i am from alabama and alot of people down here (mostly older) are prejudice. some racist some just haters. like i had a friend who moved here from indiana and he is gay and everyone knew so most people hated him but then all the guys think its hot when a girl is bi or gay and it makes ou wonder they say they hate guys because they go against god but then you think its okay for girls to be that way. really i think its perfectly fine to be gay or bi (im bi) and then the racist people are almost as bad i get into so many fights because i have alot of "black" friends and i will stand up for them if they cant or wont (wich isnt good either they need to toughen up then) but its not your buisness its theres so if you dont like them then leave them alone. if you dont have anything nice to say dont say anything at all. and i really cant stand when rednecks want to say something but then you start to give it back to them there done. they can dish it out but they cant take it. it just means theyre pussys!!

so until next time


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youtube!

okay this is going to be super short so i just uploaded my first youtube video!!!! Woot!


go check it out


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zGS3pEAgwos


sorry if i look stupid >.>

The best music ever!!!

okay. if none of you know i love scotty vanity my two favorites of his is "i like your hair" (i do have a hair fedish) and "lets go to the mall". Well alot of people dont like my music. They think its "weird" but me and all my friends love it. We like screamo (examples: drop dead gorgeous, my cousins band "iris colored white" yaddayadda) and all that stuff i like techno and people try to say im a poser because i like rap but i mean i love eminem (sp?) and old school DMX. I do my hair scene and i am emo so deal with it and haters can hate i dont care that is your stress just remember this haters make me famous and its true why do you still think hannah montana is famous? people like to talk shit but imm not even gonna sweat about it that is there problem i like almost all music except country and thats the way it is.



so until next time

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Rip micheal jackson!

okay this is messed up.
some fans of Micheal were at the hospital and tried to bust in and see his DEAD body!
and then his haters were like good the molester is gone well, he was proven Innocent on the account of the accusation against him. I'm like what if it was someone close to you who died and all most people said was terrible things. How would you feel? Just think about that. He was awesome (yes i am a fan) and he only wanted peace and i think he desurves to pest in peace. But instead everyone jsut wants to talk about bad things about him. he was trying to get his life back on track okay i have to put this vid up here its matthew lush aka gay god


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L0bofAc8Hbc

everything he says is true (love you matt) [i hope i dont get into trouble for putting that up]

well leave comments telling what you think.


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p.s. they are selling tickets to his funeral wow that is fucked up

offended???

okay people think im mean because i may say something mean about them, but truely i make fun off everyone and if i hurt your feelings then you probley need to man up or put your big girl panties on and deal with it. truely i am down to earth and lots of fun but everyone only sees what i look like and i guess you could say im "scene" or punk or whatever all i know is im dead baby lol (btw that means cool) i have a crued sense of humor so get over it. I can joke but you'll know if i get offended which is hard to do. Like i say "don't dish it out if you can't take it" and that is true. If you want to say something then dont think i wont get you with an awesome come back lol so if you get offened all i have to say is man up and quiet being a baby!!!




to all my (few)fans


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Real friends?

What is a friend?
Well we know it is some one who will stand by you no matter what and doesn't care.
But its hard these days to know who is really your friend and who isn't.
Like, I thought that one of my friends was there and was going to stay there.
Me and him have been friends for about a year and a half and he was one of the only people i could open up to. But he got a job and works double shift and i understand that. But even when he's off he won't talk to me. Truely i just know alot of people i dont have that many friends.
For someone like me it's hard to find realy friends. I have been told that i'mmessed up in the head and i have problems. My "real" friends and me get into fights because they don't understand why i feel and do what i do. I guess you never understand until it happens to you, but they ask me why do you do this and usually i don't evenunderstand it myself. People usually can tell when I'm upset and everyones in my face " what's wrong?" is what everyone asks I just want to be left alone. Thats it. I just need time to think. I usually vent on my friends wich i feel bad about. I don't want them carrying the burdens i do. I also trust anyone that will smile at me (except phsycologists yuck) which is bad but i cant help it everyone says i need therapy well let me just say this ive been in therapy sense i was lik 4 or 5 and it doesnt help me at all. arn't real friends suppose to understand or try to understand? But no ones......

First blog yay *clapping*

Well I'm sitting here bored. Lots of fun... Not really. If you are wondering i am from Alabama. Yes it stincks here. I'm not fond of rednecks. I am scene if you must know. I do spend alot of time on youtube. i like des+nate and swifty and shane dawson ect..... I love comedy. I do have a crued sense of humor. I am a terrible speller so please don't hate me for my typos. And i do listen to "weird" music like the gentails stuff (hehe). But if you ever want to chat i have a messenger at yahoo. its rawr378@yahoo.com so email me or instant message me. I plan on getting a camcorder soon and a myspace so i will release videos onto youtube and i will put a link when i do. I do plan to get pictures put up but i broke my camera. T_T sorry. But I will be going to watch theamazingphil on youtube now so you know where to find me peace douces byezz *blows kisses*

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P।S.- I don't know what to talk about so message me and tell me.... I need ideas!!! and i need friends people think im crazy so please dont be affraid to talk to me im open minded and im super cool once you get to know me